I'm back to that very night. .

That very night I told you I liked you. .
My hands start shaking everytime I think about you,
and I think I like you a little more each time.
It's funny how we want what we can't have.
Then again, why would we want something that we already have ?
sigh. . being so far away is so hard. You're the reason why I miss Vancouver so much.
I know we don't talk much, but the thought of having you near always comforts me.
Sometimes, I don't think you realize how much I like you. .
So many nights spent thinking about you. . was it all a waste ?

. . When I come back, lets pick up from where we left things, kay ?

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

SO I PURCHASED INTERNET
AND
FOUND
JOANNES MSG
AND
FOUND OUT
THAT
JOANNE AND MATT YUE WENT ALL THE WAY TO THE AIRPORT
TO FIND ME
LIKE
OMG
DOES THAT NOT DESERVE AN AWW ? : )
THAT IS
OFFICIALLY
" THE " SWEETEST THING
ANYBODY HAS
EVERRRRRRRR DONE FOR ME
LIKE
EVER
LIKE
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
IM SOOO TOUCHED
THANKS YOU GUYS, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU <3 heheheheh SO I'm currently sitting in. . some Hotel in Florence. Just moved in here today & I have to say that. . the one in Padova is better. heh :$ But whatever, the internet here is cheaper so it's all good : ) Italy ? well, theres lots of hot guys 8 ) HOTHOTHOTHOTHOT. . Idk how to emphasize hot, but they're hot. sizzling ? nah. . . they're HOTTTT. Loooove their look. I wish there were more guys like this is Vancouver, heheheheh :D Anyways, I don't really know what to write at the moment, but I just hafta say. . I MISS VANCOUVERRRRRR <3

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I miss you too <3

Hi durrrr !

Omgggg, 4 more days until EUROPEEE !! :D
So Monday. . I didn't have piano class, woot woot. I forgot what I did though. I think I was with somebody, but whatever. Went to french after and I was so fucking tiredddddd.
Tuesday. . . I was sick so I went home. . : (
OH I REMEMBER ! Okay so I was at oatridge on Monday and I bumped into my beloved Graaace ! Havent seen her in forever : ( Misss you !
Wednesday I went home cause I was sick. .
Thursdays, rehearsed my songg with Mr Chow. Shitttt I was so fucking nasal.
Friday I went home afterschool to get ready. Then met up with Matty. . . .
Got to lfa and rehearsed. Fuck that guy was late an hour FUCKKK.
Overall, I think I did pretty well considering I was hellaaaaa nervous
& whoever yelled out marry me. . . um NO hahahah !
oh and JOANNE HO. . . . THANK YOU FOR COMING, AND FOR BEING MY PERSONAL PHOTOGRAPHERRRR. & LIKE I SAID ON STAGEE. . . I LOOOVE YOU !
& I bet you love me too, 'cause yknow. I introduced you to a certain somebodehhh ; )
So after, Jims andy and edmond picked us up from my house and went to eat. Theeeeen, to Johno's partttyyyyyy. . . . omg hot guy introd himself but I bet he was too wasted to even remember who I am : (
hahahhahahahhahaha. . . . . Saturday family dinner : )
Sunday, hit the gym cause y'know. . I havent been there in a fucking week T_T I'm out of shaaaape : (
Tomorrow is my fieldtrip heheheh. Then I'm going downtown straight from the Aquarium. . . then meeting with Miska at Metro. Going to my house to drop off her stuff cause shes sleeping over. . then we're gonna go to Edmonds : )

FOUR MORE DAYS ! :D

I'm not gonna lower my standards for you.

So I gave it much thought today. . and I thought the number of relationships that I. . destroyed.
There was ***F ****. He was a disaster because. . . he called me fat. LOL ouch. and he never actually gave the effort to know me. All he did was basically ask about me through my friend, which is completely STUPID. Theeen, there was ******** **I**. Well, he was some cocky piece of shit. He tried to hide it by saying modest things, but please. About a month and half ago, there was *****N ***G. He was a fucking bullshitter. Nooooo jokes. Everyone I knew had something bad to say about him. hahahah. It was kind of. . surprising. I've never met someone that was hated so much. Then a few days ago, there was MR. UGLYFACE. Fuck, get some braces would you ? Like zomgggggg, for the love of God. & all you do, is talk about yourself. Hello ? I'm on the other line of that phone JEEZ.
Okay I know I sound like a bitch right now, but seriously. . I'm not gonna lower my standards just to what, get a guy !? NO NONONONO NO NO NO. There's more, but these were the funny ones. At least to me. . . :D
Shooo, I forgot to mention that I got in VOICE OF AN ANGEL. Yaaaaaaaay ! :D Leon you suck. Ditching me for work, what the fuck is this. Watch me this friday NOVEMBER 6, 2009 at 7pm @ Little Flower Academy. Tickets will not be sold at the door, so msg me on facebook : )
Yesterdaaaaaay, was very sad. Edmond and Jims picked me up at like 4 and we went to get costumes hahaha. I got purple wings, and Edmond got this . . bib thinger lmfao. Then we went blowing shit up for about like 5 hours. Had dinner at this guy's house, then went to Richmond for BBT. Went to blow more shit up, then Edwards' friends' party. I was so fucking tired, omg = = I'm surprised I didn't sleep in the car hahahahha.
Anyways, I'm gonna have a busy week ahead. It is Johno's birthday on Friday : )
& I just wanted to say thanks to all those who are coming this Friday ! I'm expecting a Marry Me poster ! LOL JUST KIDDING !

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- <3you