Something to finally live for..

Lose weight

A person only gets one chance to live, so why not fulfill it while looking ones best?

I won't give up until I reach my goal.

This is what I live for..

:)

so its been a month since i've updated holy shit

not much has happened.. went on encounter :D hung out with him day before i left, we watched the adjustment bureau, which by the way is such a good movie!!! report cards tmr lol.. went up like 6 percent in math, fuck yeah.

party at tommys tmr, then drink again saturday lawl

cant wait for summer!

so many tears i've cried for you..

you: university

im stressed to the max. thanks to the workload at lfa, i dont even think im gonna get into my first choice at ubc. and of course the complications my school makes with at home courses, srsly wtf.

..and if it doesnt happen with him this weekend, its over. i'm not wasting my time no more. weekends only? srsly? wtf do you take me for. im fucking over it

fuck lfa. fuck life. fuck everything

it's what inside that counts right?

and inside, i care so much. fuck.

yeah, i don't think so

i love how you think we're soo close. you're parenting sucks just so you know. your constant breath down my neck doesnt help me get work done. as a matter of fact, it just unmotivates me, thus i don't do it. yeah, im a rebel, its in my nature. so stfu so i can do things on my own. cant wait to fucking leave your ass

vday hehe

so monday night i got home around 3am.. haha. then he texted me saying happy vday hehe. so cute, and eventually asked me to chill like a few texts later haha

so the next day i asked him what we're doing and he said watch a movie.. on his laptop

so i was kinda freaking out cause i was like.. ugh. movie. laptop. HOUSE?! holy shit i was in cardiac arrest for like 2 hours, i swear

but when he came to pick me up, we jst went to annas apartment :) we watched the titanic hahahah

then he drove me home and....... nothing happened!! HAHA. well, he gave me a hug for the first time which i thought was super cute. hes shy and likes to take things slow = thumbs up!

as anna would say "muscle over brains" LOL. yeah, hes huge. hes like 3 times my size = thumbs up! and hes 3rd year commerce = another thumbs up! :D

anyways, we've been texting and stuff..

let's hope this gets somewhere.. haha

:)

friday got kicked out of school dance. like im not even mad about that but srsly, you're gonna be a bitch like that? so anna and i left (iloveyouanna). i wanted to talk to him so i called.. and we talked for an hour ish? after we hung up i saw a text so i was like oh haha i only saw this now. and he said oh i thought you called cuz i texted you. but no, i called on my own :) hehehe

so tommy came to pick us up. bought some pear absolut WHICH IS REALLY GOOD HAHA. went to a party, and left cause it was bunk. went to 7 lounge in richmond then ate at matsuyama :)

and thats pretty much it for the weekend haha. sat/sun i just did hw :(

anyways its like 2:30, i should sleep haha

tmr is tha day

he asked me to chill on monday or tuesday or smth hehehehehehehhe im surprised i didnt jump for joy in the midst of class progression LOL

idk what to wear

fuck

im so nervous D:

unmotivated

chastity

university

mother

him

life

It's been a while..

but I can truly say that Today, I am happy.

:)

its 2:08 am..

and i just finished chapter 1 :)

5 more to go.

when the fuck am i ever gonna use bio again when im studying LING in uni = = wtf

like the fucking apocalypse just happened, that's whats up

i thought he'd never..

It's been almost 2 years.. and

I still think you're a douchebag

I still think you're fake

I still think you're a fag

I still fucking hate you

I am the best you've ever had.. get used to it

kfjlsfjsl

tmr: history test, excretion testlet

monday: blood clotting and respiration test

tuesday: religion test

wednesday: pride and prejudice inclass test

friday: pride and prejudice arp

wow. are teachers not aware of the fact that we have exams in a week?!

goodbye sleep hello pimples

thank gaaaawd

.. there was no school today!!

did not study last night LOL

english due tmr and its only 11. I am improving, beleeee meee hahaha

anyways can't wait for tha 29th :D fuck lfa fuck lfa fuck lfa.

fucking myself over once again...

bio test in 7 hours

history test in 9 hours

and what have i done?

.. exactly.

Day 14: Something disgusting you do.

I skipped 13 because I don't use tumblr.

Something disgusting I do would be.. swearing. Does that count? LOL I hate swearing but it's become such a habit on me that it's basically everyday vocabulary. I wish I could change.. D:

Kay, that that wasnt disgusting LOL. OH I KNOW HAHAH I don't wax for school. Like hello, I go to private school with tights. No need LOL. I only wax when I go out :D.. but I'm not super hairy to begin with, it just bothers me if I know I'm gonna be wearing something revealing.

what has this come to

"Seriosuly....you went to see the film he offered to take you to then called him at 2am. Give him a break. Even as an inexperienced 15 year old I can see he might just need a day or 2"

I took advice from a 15 year old.

Here's the story:

He asked me to go watch a movie but he didnt talk to me for 2 days so I thought he forgot about it or was just joking. Just so happens my other friend wanted to watch it to i was like meh why not. Well, my friend ended up telling him and he was pissed. So I called at 2am trying to explain myself but he didn't pick up.... so yeah. = =

He can find me, I'm so done with this stupid game.

"Does your ass get jealous by how much shit comes out of your mouth?"

That's perfect.

Day 12: Something you're currently worrying about.

LOL I love how this one came up today.

Truthfully, I'm worrying about whether or not this guy's gonna text me or not LOL

I sound so lame hahaha. That's k : )

Day 11: Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for 10 years or someone you hate for 12 months.

12 months with someone I hate. Hello, I can't live without my laptop or all the shit in my bathroom. I'll just kill him/her : ) hahaha jk. I'm not very tolerant but I'm sure I'd deal.

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Went to the dermatologist this morning and yeah, he prescribed me some new pills and a new topical cream. Then went to school for an hour then home cause I felt really sick.

So.. yeah :D I guess I'm going to watch a movie soon? hahaha *heart

Happy New Year!!

So my plan for nye was to go to caprice. Anna and I got there at like 11 and it was full. So we went to venue that was down the street and that was full too = = So we're like.. okay whats a shitty club that probably isn't full.. hmm.. BOSS!!! LOL

So yeah, got there at like 11:55!! We each paid $85 + $20 for coat check. I later found out from this guy that tickets were only $30 so the bitch clearly ripped us off, knowing how desperate we were LOL. fuck

But yeah.. I had a really good time : ) I met this guy.. LOL. Don't wanna say much yet but he's .. yeah. hahaha.

Bumped into an oldddd friend. "JEFFREY!?!?!?!?!" hahahha.

Anyways, I wish everyone a happy new year!!! : )