I'm back to that very night. .

That very night I told you I liked you. .
My hands start shaking everytime I think about you,
and I think I like you a little more each time.
It's funny how we want what we can't have.
Then again, why would we want something that we already have ?
sigh. . being so far away is so hard. You're the reason why I miss Vancouver so much.
I know we don't talk much, but the thought of having you near always comforts me.
Sometimes, I don't think you realize how much I like you. .
So many nights spent thinking about you. . was it all a waste ?

. . When I come back, lets pick up from where we left things, kay ?

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

SO I PURCHASED INTERNET
AND
FOUND
JOANNES MSG
AND
FOUND OUT
THAT
JOANNE AND MATT YUE WENT ALL THE WAY TO THE AIRPORT
TO FIND ME
LIKE
OMG
DOES THAT NOT DESERVE AN AWW ? : )
THAT IS
OFFICIALLY
" THE " SWEETEST THING
ANYBODY HAS
EVERRRRRRRR DONE FOR ME
LIKE
EVER
LIKE
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
IM SOOO TOUCHED
THANKS YOU GUYS, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU <3 heheheheh SO I'm currently sitting in. . some Hotel in Florence. Just moved in here today & I have to say that. . the one in Padova is better. heh :$ But whatever, the internet here is cheaper so it's all good : ) Italy ? well, theres lots of hot guys 8 ) HOTHOTHOTHOTHOT. . Idk how to emphasize hot, but they're hot. sizzling ? nah. . . they're HOTTTT. Loooove their look. I wish there were more guys like this is Vancouver, heheheheh :D Anyways, I don't really know what to write at the moment, but I just hafta say. . I MISS VANCOUVERRRRRR <3

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I miss you too <3

Hi durrrr !

Omgggg, 4 more days until EUROPEEE !! :D
So Monday. . I didn't have piano class, woot woot. I forgot what I did though. I think I was with somebody, but whatever. Went to french after and I was so fucking tiredddddd.
Tuesday. . . I was sick so I went home. . : (
OH I REMEMBER ! Okay so I was at oatridge on Monday and I bumped into my beloved Graaace ! Havent seen her in forever : ( Misss you !
Wednesday I went home cause I was sick. .
Thursdays, rehearsed my songg with Mr Chow. Shitttt I was so fucking nasal.
Friday I went home afterschool to get ready. Then met up with Matty. . . .
Got to lfa and rehearsed. Fuck that guy was late an hour FUCKKK.
Overall, I think I did pretty well considering I was hellaaaaa nervous
& whoever yelled out marry me. . . um NO hahahah !
oh and JOANNE HO. . . . THANK YOU FOR COMING, AND FOR BEING MY PERSONAL PHOTOGRAPHERRRR. & LIKE I SAID ON STAGEE. . . I LOOOVE YOU !
& I bet you love me too, 'cause yknow. I introduced you to a certain somebodehhh ; )
So after, Jims andy and edmond picked us up from my house and went to eat. Theeeeen, to Johno's partttyyyyyy. . . . omg hot guy introd himself but I bet he was too wasted to even remember who I am : (
hahahhahahahhahaha. . . . . Saturday family dinner : )
Sunday, hit the gym cause y'know. . I havent been there in a fucking week T_T I'm out of shaaaape : (
Tomorrow is my fieldtrip heheheh. Then I'm going downtown straight from the Aquarium. . . then meeting with Miska at Metro. Going to my house to drop off her stuff cause shes sleeping over. . then we're gonna go to Edmonds : )

FOUR MORE DAYS ! :D

I'm not gonna lower my standards for you.

So I gave it much thought today. . and I thought the number of relationships that I. . destroyed.
There was ***F ****. He was a disaster because. . . he called me fat. LOL ouch. and he never actually gave the effort to know me. All he did was basically ask about me through my friend, which is completely STUPID. Theeen, there was ******** **I**. Well, he was some cocky piece of shit. He tried to hide it by saying modest things, but please. About a month and half ago, there was *****N ***G. He was a fucking bullshitter. Nooooo jokes. Everyone I knew had something bad to say about him. hahahah. It was kind of. . surprising. I've never met someone that was hated so much. Then a few days ago, there was MR. UGLYFACE. Fuck, get some braces would you ? Like zomgggggg, for the love of God. & all you do, is talk about yourself. Hello ? I'm on the other line of that phone JEEZ.
Okay I know I sound like a bitch right now, but seriously. . I'm not gonna lower my standards just to what, get a guy !? NO NONONONO NO NO NO. There's more, but these were the funny ones. At least to me. . . :D
Shooo, I forgot to mention that I got in VOICE OF AN ANGEL. Yaaaaaaaay ! :D Leon you suck. Ditching me for work, what the fuck is this. Watch me this friday NOVEMBER 6, 2009 at 7pm @ Little Flower Academy. Tickets will not be sold at the door, so msg me on facebook : )
Yesterdaaaaaay, was very sad. Edmond and Jims picked me up at like 4 and we went to get costumes hahaha. I got purple wings, and Edmond got this . . bib thinger lmfao. Then we went blowing shit up for about like 5 hours. Had dinner at this guy's house, then went to Richmond for BBT. Went to blow more shit up, then Edwards' friends' party. I was so fucking tired, omg = = I'm surprised I didn't sleep in the car hahahahha.
Anyways, I'm gonna have a busy week ahead. It is Johno's birthday on Friday : )
& I just wanted to say thanks to all those who are coming this Friday ! I'm expecting a Marry Me poster ! LOL JUST KIDDING !

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- <3you

ME ? HOME ON A FRIDAY NIGHT ? WHAT ?!

Hahahah. Okay I'm surprised. I haven't had dinner with my family in such a long ass time.
Shhooooo, let's get started ! Monday . . omg that the Lord. Last piano class cause she's going to HK, and I have my cruise soon, sooo. . WOOT WOOT ! Tuesday. . met up with Matty afterschool. Walked around oakridge. Omg I bumped into the most rude guy on the bus. Like, he randomly adds me on facebook, but doesn't have the decency to say hi on the bus ? wow fuck you. Then I went to the gym with Henry for fucking 3 hours. Yes, 3 hours. Haha. Wednesday, I slept from 9pm to 12am. Called nicole and miska at like fricken 1 and they got mad at me hahah. Woke up at 5:45 and got to school at 615 ! hahahh yeah its a record. Our retreat was boring. . Stayed overnight at a decent hotel. At least this shit is better than ND's. Then saturday we got some free time. OMG I SAW THE PRETTIEST PAIR OF EARRINGS AHHHH ! Haha after we got back, i went STRAIGHT home to get ready for. . ST GEORGES DANCE !! Omg it's my first and it was AWESOME. I was a LITTLE bummed, but that doesnt take away the fact that it was a lot of fun. . fun, as in hot guys ; ) hahahahahahhaha shhhh ! Soooo, I went out yesterday, so therefore I am home today to do. . homework. sigh = = Then tomorrow, there are a million things going on. So hectic I just wanna fricken stay home. Haha, of course I won't. So in the morning I'm getting my h1n1 vaccination. Theeen, Edmond is gonna pick me up and play with fireworks and shit. Then Trick or treating. . theeeeeeeeen PARTY ! hahahhaha. Here's a shout out to Leon. MY SERVICES ARE NOT TEMPORARY. Sorry : (

EDIT : FORGOT TO MENTION SOMETHING REAAAALLY IMPORTANT.
EDWARD ; THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH FOR THE CANDY GRAM. I'VE BEEN AT LFA FOR WHAT, 2 MONTHS ? YOU MADE ME FEEL THAAAAAAT MUCH MORE SPECIAL. SO THANK YOOOOU SO MUCH HAHAHHAHA. BTW. I ATE ALL THE CHOCOLATE ALREADY. SUGAAAR HIGGGGGH WOOT WOOT !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON !

So I HEARD it's your birthday. . right ? I just wanted to take some time to write in my blog about. . you !
Sooo. . I remember when we met we never used to talk. Am I correct ? Oh wait according to you we met way before Well Tea. 8 ) Not true hahahaha. But yeah, somehow, we ended up here. . .
I can actually tell you things now ! I used to think you were the most ignorant mindless piece of crap ever but I guess I was wrong. You're the kind of person who doesn't show their emotion to people unless if you actually trust them. & I'm happy to say that I'll always be here for you, even if it means me going down to TuttiMelon again to redeem my free yogurt haha. jk : )
Anyways. . HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON ! <3 <3 <3

Soo. . I've had a VERY busy week. I didn't even do my 150 minutes this week. Oh noes : ( So Tuesday I went to the gym with Henry, heheheh <3 Then Wednesday was another Leo's Club meeting. . fuck. Then thursday . . WOOT WOOT. ARTONA ! Hehe, Thank you Paul ! <3 Then Mandy asked me as well, omg. I feel so special hehehe. Jk ! Friday. . Volunteer. Holy fuck. That Roger guy can go suck my 10 inch. I GOT FIRED FROM VOLUNTEER WORK !? I said I wanted to go home cause I didn't want to WALK THROUGH STANLEY PARK WHILE IT WAS POURING RAIN. I'm sorry, I DIDN'T WANT TO GET SICK, AND HAVE TO CHARGE YOU FOR MEDICATION. Holyyyyy fuck. Whatever, left that & met up with my best buddy : ) Matt Yue, why the fuck are you so fucking nice to me huh !? WHYYY ???? hahahahh Saturday. . hmm, I have to say that saturday was AWESOME. Fright night with Mandy Henry Paul EDWARD ( wimp ) Stas . . and a WHOLE BUNCH others. Can't name haha. OH !!!!! WE BUMPED INTO CHRIS CHU HAHAHHAAHAHAH. That was so funny. Yeah, their vc guys were wimps no joke. But at least they were there, so it's all good 8 )
So yeah. busy busy week. . . & Halloween's coming up : \ AND JUSTIN BIEBER
WHAT IS THIS ?!

Turnover

Just finished reading the note and it felt weird as hell. I never thought as myself as that kind of person. After reading it, I started to think of the possibilities of what would happen if what you said actually became reality.