Merry Christmas !

Huuuuge ass Nutella !

I'm a camwhore. Deal with it.

Group picture ! Yeah, Char fucking suckssss at camwhoring haha !

Looove this girl

Hahaha. . I love this orange shirt =D

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What did I do so far ? Friday. . Track 1 : ) Saturday. . I don't really remember. Haha, probably Chrismtas shopping :D Sunday . . Chrismtas shopping with Matt Y, then met up with William & Nathan. Haha, haven't seen them mofos in a looong time. Miss you ! Then I had a family dinner : ) Monday. . I had classes, and finally got a phone =D Tuesday. . Edmond's party. Went crazy again, thanks to someone's presence : ) & Joanne pushed me. . so I gotta go to the doctor in the next few days to check if my head's okay. Wednesday, I went SKIING WITH NICOLE ! & Tom and Colin too hahahah. Good times. OH & I met DAVID SUZUKI !! ; ) Hahaha. . Thursday, went for Posh with Char and Roger, who didn't eat jack shit. Then, went to do some ACTUAL SHOPPING. . with Terry too ! Got some liquor, haha Thanks for purchasing it for us ! Went home, then went back out at 10:30 for midnight mass with Matt Y and his mom : ) What a loooong mass. Went to mcdicks at 2am, woooooooo. Hahaha. Today ? Woke up at fucking 2 ? 3 ? Loooove it. Haven't been home in soooo long, and it fucking feels GOOD. I should do this more often. But I can't = = Dayum.

Merry Christmas everybody !

I'm always sayin' " It's okay, it's alright "

I honestly don't know what people want. When I'm too nice, people always take it for granted. & when I put up my barrier people call me a bitch. Wtf ? I'm not gonna alter myself anymore. . Please deal with it. Bare with the fact that I just wanna be myself. & Call me crazy, but I really don't give a shit about YOU.
The other day, I was reading The Globe and Halo. . and my jaw literally dropped as I passed the Horoscopes. I've never read a horoscope soooo reflective upon me before. I was very shocked. In one word ? I was truly gobsmacked.
" TAURUS - Others are noticing you, and you're busy adjusting and socializing. Charm comes naturally and you want nothing more than to find peace with someone. Have patience. However, you are wearing your emotions on your sleeve; be careful and avoid getting hurt ! "
WOAHWOAHWOAHHHH. . . like, WOAHHH. O_O
Then later that night, I was reading a book by Chrystalina Evert, a book given to each and every one of us at LFA by Jason Evert. I was reading " The Dump List ", and honest to God, I couldn't stop laughing at the fact that so many of these things has actually happened to me. HAHAHAHAH.
Chrystalina Evert's " Reliable Dump List "
- You've had to tell him to stop more than once.
- You feel the need to fix him
- He looks at pornography
- He hits you, pushes you, or does anything to frighten you.
- He gets drunk, or takes drugs
- He doesn't care if you lie to your family. ( I think he prefered that I did. )
- He leads you away from God
- He puts you down ( even if says he's just " kidding " )
- He cheats on you . . . I would call "that" cheating actually.
- He lies to you - HELL YEAH
- He flirts with other girls. HELL YEAH
- He uses guilt to get you to do what he wants. THIS. . WAS A HUUUUUGE ISSUE.
- He always resents time you spend with your family and friends. ANOTHER HUGE ISSUE
- He behaves badly, then blames it on other people, or things that happen to him
- He can't stand on his own 2 feet without you. LOL idk about this one.
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I think we all know which asshole I'm talking about right here. .
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& I disabled comments 'cause I get upset whenever I see 0. & the day that I disabled them, people were asking me why. Like honestly,. . stfu. = = But yeah, if you got anything to say, email me. . or call me : ) I GOT A PHONE MOFOS. Join my ANGELL NEEDS YOUR NUMBERS group on fb :D

Photos are up, bbg's <3

Getting ready at my house before Snow Glow : )

Everyone has sooooome asian in them 8 )

Hot, yuhhh

Tiff, you piss me off

Haha, jk. I love you !

Carmen & I, after watching the NutCracker Ballet :D

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Nessa & I @ retreat <3>My mom & I on the train. . somewhere in Italy : )
Pisa, Italy. I fucking took this photo. . I know, it's beautiful <3>

I'll upload more later, but I'm really busy with Christmas shit atm. . so yeah :D

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Just so you know. .

I was the one who brought you back up when you were left in the fucking dust, and now you turn your back against me ? So tell me how in hell you can even come to call yourself a good friend. Well let me tell you this. . Don't even expect me to be there anymore, 'cause I'm fucking long gone. You take me for granted like I'm always gonna be fucking there for you. LOL I'm not. . just like you were never there for me. Expect what you give, bitch.

I want a hippopotamus for Christmas !

LOL naw, jk. I want something else :$
Sooo. . school starts at 10 tmr, and I'm kinda stoked HAHA. I mean, I fucking get to sleep in okay. Yeah lame, stfu.
Soo. . Christmas is coming soon guys ! & I'm looking forward to Edmond's party haha. Apparently, we all have to buy a gift (15 minimum), and we do a gift exchange. ISN'T THAT COOL ? HAHAHAH. I hope I don't get chocolate, 'cause I fucking hate chocolate.
& I just finished telling my guru my love story. . yes, I have a guru now hahaha.

You got me thinkin'. . . & you made me LOL yst. :D

What happened yesterday. . stays in the past.

Happy 16th Birthday Rachel ! Thanks for inviting me : ) Yeaaaah, pretty much made a fooool out of myself. . so let's not speak of it ever again : )
& sorry Nicole. . I really wanted to go to your party. . but like I said. . things got kindaaa carried away. Heh, I promise I'll make it up to you ! <3 LOL HOPE YOU LIKE WHAT I GOT YOU ; ) AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE PRESENT HAHAHA.
So. . busy busy week ! Tomorrow, I have my . . classes, fml.
Tuesday, VC basketball game.
Wednesday, Leos Club Meeting
Thursday. . dunno haha. But I know theres something.
Friday. . TGFI. Snow Glow 3 :D
Ohhh, & I'm gonna watch a ballet with my beloved Carmen, woooooooooo ! <3

Can't fucking wait 'til Christmas, damnit.

Woot Woot. .

we got the car ! It actually came a few days ago, but yeah. . forgot to say. I think it's the most beautiful thing, hehehehehehehehe <3
Anyways. . Just came back from movie and. . smth else, heh. I have yet to buy like 3 gifts. . f'real, FML. I just do not have the time. I'm tired as fuck. & I got 2 shots today so both my arms are not available for use. Even texting hurts : (
So yeah, I saw her today. . . heeeeeeehehehehe. It wasn't for long but whateverrrrr. . She got a nice haircut :D &. . she gave my friend free food, lmfao. Okay, laaaame.
Anyways I NEED to sleep.
Goodnights.

I rode a donkey, how many people can say THAT.

So I got back Monday night, but I didn't have the time to update. I'm supposed to be studying right now cause I have a bio and socials test tmr. . shit so much to catch up with !
Anyways. . I'm pretty packed until Christmas Break, literally.
This weekend. . I'm going somewhere 8 ) hehe. . then im getting my H1N1 shot. People told me it hurts like a bitch. . yikes : \
Then next saturday, hoooly smokes. I'm having lunch and movie with Char then I gotta haul my ass to Rachel's party then at night, I gotta head to Nicole's party. Shit why do people have things on the fucking same day.
Then on the 18th I'm doing to Track 1 with a whole bunch of people. & Matt Y, you better fucking go, goddamnit.
Yeah & I might head up to big white with the guys over the break.
I gotta finish all my homework first : ( I need a math tutor that's for suuuure.

The pictures were from a while ago actually. . . St. Georges dance : )

I'm back to that very night. .

That very night I told you I liked you. .
My hands start shaking everytime I think about you,
and I think I like you a little more each time.
It's funny how we want what we can't have.
Then again, why would we want something that we already have ?
sigh. . being so far away is so hard. You're the reason why I miss Vancouver so much.
I know we don't talk much, but the thought of having you near always comforts me.
Sometimes, I don't think you realize how much I like you. .
So many nights spent thinking about you. . was it all a waste ?

. . When I come back, lets pick up from where we left things, kay ?

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

SO I PURCHASED INTERNET
AND
FOUND
JOANNES MSG
AND
FOUND OUT
THAT
JOANNE AND MATT YUE WENT ALL THE WAY TO THE AIRPORT
TO FIND ME
LIKE
OMG
DOES THAT NOT DESERVE AN AWW ? : )
THAT IS
OFFICIALLY
" THE " SWEETEST THING
ANYBODY HAS
EVERRRRRRRR DONE FOR ME
LIKE
EVER
LIKE
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
IM SOOO TOUCHED
THANKS YOU GUYS, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU <3 heheheheh SO I'm currently sitting in. . some Hotel in Florence. Just moved in here today & I have to say that. . the one in Padova is better. heh :$ But whatever, the internet here is cheaper so it's all good : ) Italy ? well, theres lots of hot guys 8 ) HOTHOTHOTHOTHOT. . Idk how to emphasize hot, but they're hot. sizzling ? nah. . . they're HOTTTT. Loooove their look. I wish there were more guys like this is Vancouver, heheheheh :D Anyways, I don't really know what to write at the moment, but I just hafta say. . I MISS VANCOUVERRRRRR <3

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I miss you too <3

Hi durrrr !

Omgggg, 4 more days until EUROPEEE !! :D
So Monday. . I didn't have piano class, woot woot. I forgot what I did though. I think I was with somebody, but whatever. Went to french after and I was so fucking tiredddddd.
Tuesday. . . I was sick so I went home. . : (
OH I REMEMBER ! Okay so I was at oatridge on Monday and I bumped into my beloved Graaace ! Havent seen her in forever : ( Misss you !
Wednesday I went home cause I was sick. .
Thursdays, rehearsed my songg with Mr Chow. Shitttt I was so fucking nasal.
Friday I went home afterschool to get ready. Then met up with Matty. . . .
Got to lfa and rehearsed. Fuck that guy was late an hour FUCKKK.
Overall, I think I did pretty well considering I was hellaaaaa nervous
& whoever yelled out marry me. . . um NO hahahah !
oh and JOANNE HO. . . . THANK YOU FOR COMING, AND FOR BEING MY PERSONAL PHOTOGRAPHERRRR. & LIKE I SAID ON STAGEE. . . I LOOOVE YOU !
& I bet you love me too, 'cause yknow. I introduced you to a certain somebodehhh ; )
So after, Jims andy and edmond picked us up from my house and went to eat. Theeeeen, to Johno's partttyyyyyy. . . . omg hot guy introd himself but I bet he was too wasted to even remember who I am : (
hahahhahahahhahaha. . . . . Saturday family dinner : )
Sunday, hit the gym cause y'know. . I havent been there in a fucking week T_T I'm out of shaaaape : (
Tomorrow is my fieldtrip heheheh. Then I'm going downtown straight from the Aquarium. . . then meeting with Miska at Metro. Going to my house to drop off her stuff cause shes sleeping over. . then we're gonna go to Edmonds : )

FOUR MORE DAYS ! :D

I'm not gonna lower my standards for you.

So I gave it much thought today. . and I thought the number of relationships that I. . destroyed.
There was ***F ****. He was a disaster because. . . he called me fat. LOL ouch. and he never actually gave the effort to know me. All he did was basically ask about me through my friend, which is completely STUPID. Theeen, there was ******** **I**. Well, he was some cocky piece of shit. He tried to hide it by saying modest things, but please. About a month and half ago, there was *****N ***G. He was a fucking bullshitter. Nooooo jokes. Everyone I knew had something bad to say about him. hahahah. It was kind of. . surprising. I've never met someone that was hated so much. Then a few days ago, there was MR. UGLYFACE. Fuck, get some braces would you ? Like zomgggggg, for the love of God. & all you do, is talk about yourself. Hello ? I'm on the other line of that phone JEEZ.
Okay I know I sound like a bitch right now, but seriously. . I'm not gonna lower my standards just to what, get a guy !? NO NONONONO NO NO NO. There's more, but these were the funny ones. At least to me. . . :D
Shooo, I forgot to mention that I got in VOICE OF AN ANGEL. Yaaaaaaaay ! :D Leon you suck. Ditching me for work, what the fuck is this. Watch me this friday NOVEMBER 6, 2009 at 7pm @ Little Flower Academy. Tickets will not be sold at the door, so msg me on facebook : )
Yesterdaaaaaay, was very sad. Edmond and Jims picked me up at like 4 and we went to get costumes hahaha. I got purple wings, and Edmond got this . . bib thinger lmfao. Then we went blowing shit up for about like 5 hours. Had dinner at this guy's house, then went to Richmond for BBT. Went to blow more shit up, then Edwards' friends' party. I was so fucking tired, omg = = I'm surprised I didn't sleep in the car hahahahha.
Anyways, I'm gonna have a busy week ahead. It is Johno's birthday on Friday : )
& I just wanted to say thanks to all those who are coming this Friday ! I'm expecting a Marry Me poster ! LOL JUST KIDDING !

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- <3you

ME ? HOME ON A FRIDAY NIGHT ? WHAT ?!

Hahahah. Okay I'm surprised. I haven't had dinner with my family in such a long ass time.
Shhooooo, let's get started ! Monday . . omg that the Lord. Last piano class cause she's going to HK, and I have my cruise soon, sooo. . WOOT WOOT ! Tuesday. . met up with Matty afterschool. Walked around oakridge. Omg I bumped into the most rude guy on the bus. Like, he randomly adds me on facebook, but doesn't have the decency to say hi on the bus ? wow fuck you. Then I went to the gym with Henry for fucking 3 hours. Yes, 3 hours. Haha. Wednesday, I slept from 9pm to 12am. Called nicole and miska at like fricken 1 and they got mad at me hahah. Woke up at 5:45 and got to school at 615 ! hahahh yeah its a record. Our retreat was boring. . Stayed overnight at a decent hotel. At least this shit is better than ND's. Then saturday we got some free time. OMG I SAW THE PRETTIEST PAIR OF EARRINGS AHHHH ! Haha after we got back, i went STRAIGHT home to get ready for. . ST GEORGES DANCE !! Omg it's my first and it was AWESOME. I was a LITTLE bummed, but that doesnt take away the fact that it was a lot of fun. . fun, as in hot guys ; ) hahahahahahhaha shhhh ! Soooo, I went out yesterday, so therefore I am home today to do. . homework. sigh = = Then tomorrow, there are a million things going on. So hectic I just wanna fricken stay home. Haha, of course I won't. So in the morning I'm getting my h1n1 vaccination. Theeen, Edmond is gonna pick me up and play with fireworks and shit. Then Trick or treating. . theeeeeeeeen PARTY ! hahahhaha. Here's a shout out to Leon. MY SERVICES ARE NOT TEMPORARY. Sorry : (

EDIT : FORGOT TO MENTION SOMETHING REAAAALLY IMPORTANT.
EDWARD ; THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH FOR THE CANDY GRAM. I'VE BEEN AT LFA FOR WHAT, 2 MONTHS ? YOU MADE ME FEEL THAAAAAAT MUCH MORE SPECIAL. SO THANK YOOOOU SO MUCH HAHAHHAHA. BTW. I ATE ALL THE CHOCOLATE ALREADY. SUGAAAR HIGGGGGH WOOT WOOT !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON !

So I HEARD it's your birthday. . right ? I just wanted to take some time to write in my blog about. . you !
Sooo. . I remember when we met we never used to talk. Am I correct ? Oh wait according to you we met way before Well Tea. 8 ) Not true hahahaha. But yeah, somehow, we ended up here. . .
I can actually tell you things now ! I used to think you were the most ignorant mindless piece of crap ever but I guess I was wrong. You're the kind of person who doesn't show their emotion to people unless if you actually trust them. & I'm happy to say that I'll always be here for you, even if it means me going down to TuttiMelon again to redeem my free yogurt haha. jk : )
Anyways. . HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON ! <3 <3 <3

Soo. . I've had a VERY busy week. I didn't even do my 150 minutes this week. Oh noes : ( So Tuesday I went to the gym with Henry, heheheh <3 Then Wednesday was another Leo's Club meeting. . fuck. Then thursday . . WOOT WOOT. ARTONA ! Hehe, Thank you Paul ! <3 Then Mandy asked me as well, omg. I feel so special hehehe. Jk ! Friday. . Volunteer. Holy fuck. That Roger guy can go suck my 10 inch. I GOT FIRED FROM VOLUNTEER WORK !? I said I wanted to go home cause I didn't want to WALK THROUGH STANLEY PARK WHILE IT WAS POURING RAIN. I'm sorry, I DIDN'T WANT TO GET SICK, AND HAVE TO CHARGE YOU FOR MEDICATION. Holyyyyy fuck. Whatever, left that & met up with my best buddy : ) Matt Yue, why the fuck are you so fucking nice to me huh !? WHYYY ???? hahahahh Saturday. . hmm, I have to say that saturday was AWESOME. Fright night with Mandy Henry Paul EDWARD ( wimp ) Stas . . and a WHOLE BUNCH others. Can't name haha. OH !!!!! WE BUMPED INTO CHRIS CHU HAHAHHAAHAHAH. That was so funny. Yeah, their vc guys were wimps no joke. But at least they were there, so it's all good 8 )
So yeah. busy busy week. . . & Halloween's coming up : \ AND JUSTIN BIEBER
WHAT IS THIS ?!

Turnover

Just finished reading the note and it felt weird as hell. I never thought as myself as that kind of person. After reading it, I started to think of the possibilities of what would happen if what you said actually became reality.

Lovin' the past 2 weeks. <3

<3 Happy Birthday Charity !


<3 you make me wanna shit my pants



Ooooh, Miska ! <3

Happy Birthday. .

haha I'll say it again the coming sat !

<3

S T R E S S E D

I'm so busy ! : ( So over the past 2 weeks, I think I've spent at least $500 on gifts. Thank you guys for being born all at the same time. Mhmm.
So on Friday I had volunteer. Got home at like fricken 12. Then Saturday was Edwards' birthday ! Haha Mandy's gift was so sweet. My gift on the other hand was fucking crap. Joanne and I both chipped in $20, so I went to . . . THE DOLLAR STORE ! I just grabbed a bunch of random shit like. . silly putty, a thong, shavers, candies. . etc. Yeah, it was REALLY random. After dinner, I had to leave cause I had Karbos thing. I wish I couldve gone to his house for movie and cake omg : (
So yeah, got home and changed. Went downtown for Joeys. It was ALRIGHT. Then, got in Jims car and went all the way to BURNABY then BACK DOWNTOWN. Like, WTFFFF. Yeah, so the original plan was to sit down and have cake. But some people were being reaaally selfish and drove us around Stanley Park and started to blaze. Um, WTF.
Yeah, got home at like 1230, thanks got Jims' driving : )
Yesterday was Charity's birthday. It was a lot of fun actually haha. At first Karbo and I were being fucking loners no joke. We sat by ourselves for the longest time. & the fact that we were both pissed off. Yeno bitch you are pretty shady. Why are you such a penis hogger. Seriously, you're ugly. Ugh you piss me off. Anyways. . . Left Earls at fricken like. . 10 ! hahaha. Then by the time we got the RR for drinks, it was already 1030. Theeeeeen, chartiy realized she left a gift at earls so karbo matt and i had to walk alll the way back to earls. sigh. But it was fun : ) Got home at like. . 1230 ? Yeah.
Todaay, met Matt at Oakridge hehehe. Thanks for all your help <3
& Now I'm fucking screwed cause I got a shit load of homework. : (
SOMEONE HELP ME !

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So much to do, so little time. : (

Today was walkathon. Painful : ( And Natalia needs to stop biting me haha. My hair got messed, so I had to go to my salon after haha. I love you Yusaf
Went downtown with Nicole Charity Miska and LEOOON. HEY ! haha Couldn't really walk. . but thanks for the arms guys : ) Esp. Leon. <3
Tomorrow, meeting with Miska to buy a present for Charity. I don't think my sweater is gunna fit her : ( sniff. Then hot pot with family. 'cause yeno. mooncake thinger. Then nightmarket with a buuuuunch of people. :D
Sunday, i'll be at vc.
NO TIME FOR HW. WHAT IS THIS.
Next friday is Creatures of the Night haha gay
Saturday is. . . Edward AND Karbo's party : ( : ( I WANNA GO TO BOTH THOUGHHH
Sunday is Charity's party. . .
Monday. I have. something. Forgot, but I have something, hahaha

I AM PACKED : \

Repeat

I'm becoming unglued without you.

So I'm supposed to be doing my homework right now. I came upstairs at 8, and it's currently 8:55. I've been sitting here for almost an hour. Not doing homework. Doing what ? In this hour, I think I've gone to your page at least what. 80 times ? I think I'm going craaazy. Why can't I stop looooookingg ? I catch myself doing the weird, most bizarre things just to get your attention. What is this ?! Everytime I look at you, I get such a weird feelingggg O_O. I get so shy. ME ?! SHY ?! MEEE ?! Noooooo. . .

WHAT IS THIS ?!

Presents x2

So I was at metro today, finding presents haha. I hope they like them !
& I forgot to post the MOST IMPORTANT EVENT from yesterday
So Leslie was driving Olivia home, and there was 6 people in the car. He had to use the gps cause yeno. we didnt know how to get there apparently. Sooo. . . there were fricken 12 cops on the highway chekcing out EACH CAR. & leslie already broke the law by taking off his N sign, so we were fricken like freaaaaking out. So guess what ! I had to fucking stuff myself at the floor of the car, and they had to cover me with fricken like jackets and school bags = = omgg. it was sooo intense there a dozen flashlights flashing at us. Good thing leslie's car was nice and clean :D
hahaha.

I had an awesome day today, thank you.

AMAZING DAY

So after school, Charity Joanne Olivia and I went to. . Tuttimelon to visit Leon :D hehehehehheh DOUCHE. Theeeen, we met up with John ? ( i think thats his name hahah ) Fabian Leinard Richard and Graham. Heheheheh. OH YEAH I MISSED SUCH AN IMPORTANT EVENT. So we got off the Canada Line, and walked by Lansdowne. I saw a guy with a " painted face " and i was like nice face. But omg. It wasn't face paint. I felt SOOO BAD. But his friend was like bitching at me, and these guys are like 10 so their come backs are like OKAY BYE. hahahah it was hilarious. But I just wnated to say sorry to the guy I said nice face to. I had nooo idea. I thought it was a mask for like a non uniform day or smth :S SORRY ! Anyways. . . so Leinard Richard and Graham ditched us for McDicks, and Charity went apeshit. Literally. She started crying, laugihng SCREAMING all at the fucking same time. Like HAHAH. We were all laughing at her, it was hilarious. I love your Charity ! Afterrrr. . . went to espot. I AM SO GOOD AT BILLIARDS, you gotta admit it guys. So we met up with Chris there. Oh Fabian, you suck at pool :D :D hahaha. I actually won a game, I am fucking prosauce. Theeeeen, we went to RC. Did nothing. Finally, night market. OMG. MY HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY. I got a reading from these like people. Like, apparently, God speaks through them. And no joke everything they said was SO FUCKING ACCURATE. They said I was getting over pain, and I'm seeking love from God. & just a whole bunch of stuff. Ohmygoddddd. & one of them predicted that I love singing. . which I do. like. OMG. I love those people. Soooo I got their emails and yeah ! hahahah. Theeeeen yeah. Hung out for like 2 hours. potato hurricane thing was soooo good haha. Leon, I hate your friend. like fuck. Oh, and I met a girl named Melissa hahah. She is soooooooooo nice haha. She's such a happy person ! Then going home was a bitch cause Leslie couldnt drive me all the way home. Called Em and shes like OMG IM GOING TO NIGHT MARKET NOW HAHAHAHAH. It was hilarious. So Leslie just dropped me off at Oakridge. I had to find my way home hahahahha. Thanks Leon ?? but yeah. THANK YOU LESLIEEE !
Soooo I had a reaaaaaaaaaally good day today hehehehhe
AND. I MISSED YOU JOANNE !! I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD TIME IN ASHLAND BUT. . . . YOU'RE BETTER OFF HERE, HAHAHAH !

<3

OKAY SO. . .

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! HEHEHEHEHEH ! <3

WOOT WOOT

I am so happy !

You. . . are alluring.

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I smell weird : (

After school, bussed with Natalia and Sharlene. Heh, fuck you KM. Went to the gym :D woot woot
Leo's Club tomorrow ? Thanks for the ride !

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Reborn

So tomorrow's the start of my second week at LFA, and already I can tell that it's better than ND. First of all. . I can go the bathroom without suffocating.
So Thursday, I bussed with Edward to Oakridge. . fun, 'cause saw tons of people on the way. : ) Friday, we got off early. Went to VC with friends, and met up with guys for sushi. Metro after that. Fucking tireeeed as hell. Weekend came along, and I swear to God. No more all u can eat. PLEASE ! Haha. Just finished a shit load of french hw. . so fucking painful. Going to the gym with Cullen tomorrow.

& even with this busy schedule, I've never been happier.

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I can die right now, and I will die happy.

Fulfilled.

Out of Sight. . & Definitely Out of Mind

My title says it all.

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Monday, September 7 2009.

Summer's coming to an end,
and so are other things.
Memories have passed,
and I can only be futuristic.
I feel you.
I can only wish. .
for one touch.

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Companionship. . .

. . . is a worthless word.

It is among our nature to come, then go.

True friendship is bullshit. Stinginess is within us all.

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I love him ♥

♥

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The sentiment of being. .

serene
calm
sanguine

Thanks to you.

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UP. .

. . THEN RIGHT BACK DOWN.

Though I got nothing accomplished today. . .

. . . I feel somewhat reached.

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Awry Timing

So close, yet. . just too far.

Today, hysteria got the best of me.

Eventually. . I will vanquish.

Au final. . . Vous serez le mien.

______________________

Love is such a beautiful thing. ♥

Love abides in every relationship.
Whether it is friendship or romance.

I was despaired,
but everything sharpened up once you called today.
I've missed you while you were away.


Je suis tellement reconnaissante pour vous. Faites-moi confiance.

_______________________________

Tonight. . .

I made a wish.

& I will not let it falter. . believe me.


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Perlustrating

. . . is what I do.
. . . is all I can do.

Canvassed throughout,
and perlustrated nothing that was impeccable. . for me.
Throughout I yearned for you,
and I long for you.

Transpire to me ; I need you now.

__________________________

Cretinous Introvert

Your modus,
is spurious.

Your ingress,
is sophistical.

What is besides this ?
Your essence,
is completely ludicrous.

____________________

Nix Target

. . . I want one.

Kyle Evans ♥

♥

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Adjustment of Temperament

For all this time,
I've adjudicated you.
I'm sorry.

For all this time,
I've been aversed to you.
I'm sorry.

For all this time,
I've been prejudice towards you,
I'm sorry.

For all this time,
I've been parsimonious towards you,
I'm sorry.



I'm simply. . Touched. . Thankful. . and most of all, Repentant.


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I want to thank . . .

you. . .
for helping me.
Never have I been the helped.
You gave up time. .
and time was what I required.
Because of a friend like you,
you made me c l o s e r.

& you. . .
for simply trying.
For giving me that assiduity.

& you. . .
for always being there.
I am aware that you have problems,
but yet you never relinquished.
I appreciate that you actually worry,
and when I'm down,
you say the best things to put a smile on my face.

& you. . .
for being the most truest,
most purest friend.
I've never met a friend,
that tells it like it is. .
Talking to you,
is like talking with a 5 year old with brains.

& you. . .
for giving me absolute affection.
I know I've been vehement in the past,
but you looked past my evasiveness.
I know it's hard.

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& all the other people that have truly spent time to help me in the past. . .

I thank you.

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You. . ♫

Nothing can explain this right now.
I can only show so much. .
and yet so limited.
But nothing matters,
because I'm_o n e__s t e p__c l o s e r . .

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Demoralized

When everyone is helpless,
who do we ask ?
When there is no light,
where do we go ?
What if we had no goal. . .
What if everything came to us,
like as if everything fell from the sky.
Would we still know the meaning of happiness ?
Or would we take everything for granted ?

When everything is hopeless,

what do we do ?

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When there's too much,

things tend to get lost.

& eventually, you'll know nothing

I want to know.

I want get to know you.

Let my thoughts go,

and don't ever come back. .

'cause I don't want to be lost.

I want us to stay.

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My Rush

The drug. . is not explainable.
It contributes a rush. .
A rush so strong,
nothing in this universe can stop me.
I'm one step closer,
and it is so invigorating.
Your ambience gives me life.
No, it is the life within my soul.
I want you,
and I want you bad.
So bad, that I can do nothing
but think about you.
You are all I think about. .
You make up my thoughts.
You have such fire,
it stimulates every aspect of me. . . and my body.


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Would you like to dance ?

Just a glimpse is what I'm asking for.
Not even a look,
because a look would mean fulfillness to my need.
I just want a glimpse,
of that beautiful face,
your flawless gestures.
I want to be in your aura,
where I can be with you.
I just . . .
want you.


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60-60-60-60-60 . . .

& when you realize, you'll be just one second too late


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It's not about the amount of a matter, but the amount that matter is willing to give up.
I appreciate it. Thank You.

Neglecting. .

. . will never find a way to be a good aspect.

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So I found a way to hide my previous blog. That way, I wouldn't have to delete it.
But over time, I'll still import things onto this blog.

Unsatisfaction

Being higher than what is expected,
is known to be good.

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This is actually my second blog.
I will slowly transfer everything from my first blog onto this one.
Everything.