Day 3: 5 Things That Irritate You About The Opposite Sex/Same Sex

1. Fake

2. Lies

3. Fake

4. Fake

5. Fake

Religion does not exist, but God does.

I don't need a brand to believe.

What brings me back..

So last year, my family and I took a cruise to the Mediterranean for about 3 weeks. Before we went on, we traveled around Italy first because my aunt goes to Italy for business trips every so often, so she kinda guided our way through. I remember one day, our plan was to visit that slanted tower thing (I have no idea what that's called), but I know it's in a place called Pisa. Because it's a tourist attraction, there were many places to shop!! :D There was this one store, I think it's called Erbolario.. or smth. I got this lotion there, and I swear, this stuff brings me back to my trip. I've barely touched it because I'm afraid that I'm gonna use it all up. oh noes D: Sometimes, I will just open it just to smell it, and it really does bring me back to Italy. I know this sounds stupid, like why the hell does she do that?! Well, I don't really get to spend time with my family at ALL, so when I do, I'm super thankful, and grateful that I have such wonderful people that care about me. I've never used this lotion out because when I go out, I don't just sit there and smell my hands LOL. Not that I do that when I'm at home either, but like now, I'm just sitting here by my computer, and I can smell the lotion because nothing else is going on. haha.

I searched the company in google, and I FOUND IT. Although I have no idea what it says, I feel good knowing I can somehow order this product (I HOPE) hahaha.

http://www.erbolario.it/catalogoprodotti/PEONIE_CREMACORPO.html

Like yeah, I have no idea what that says. But I will get it translated one day!! : )

Oblivion

The difficulty to continue is incomprehensible.

The actuality of the present never cease to bring me fear.

I have abundantly addressed your caliber, your influence on me.

Negativity does not derive from hostility, nor is it the same entity.

It derives from the despondency of one's soul.

I can only be patient for so long. .

Day 2: A Famous Person You've Been Compared To.

Ugh.. like no one LOL. I don't look like any celebrity! Okay, I got called this korean singer before, but I don't remember her name. I'm not into asian music/movies at all haha.

30 DAY CHALLENGE! - Day 1: The person you like and why you like them.

I thought this was a great idea. I'll start today!! :D

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Well, I like no one because really, there is no one to like.

RAIN+BOW

my lovely halloween partner, Nicole :)

get it? hahahahhahahah.

okay. so i put this up on facebook the other day. And I was really hesitant, 'cause I am wearing absolutely no makeup. I've been really insecure about my skin lately, and for me to do something like that, is ME PUTTING MYSELF OUT THERE. And it's so weird, because after putting this up, I got compliments. wtf? My friend messaged me and said "dude, i saw your picture. you look prettier without makeup. tbh" And for like a minute, I was kinda like.. heh. After, I was just really appreciative that she said that.

I really need to find myself. Around 3 years ago, I never wore makeup. Okay, maybe like mascara, and that was it. But now, I feel as though I have to keep up an image, or I'm not pretty enough.. Honestly, I find it sad. It takes me forever to get ready (or used to). My mom keeps telling me I'm fine without makeup, but I would never believe her because.. well, she's my mom. I'm always gonna be "beautiful" in her eyes. But it really hit me when people started "liking" my pictures and commenting nice things, that I really do not need to put on layers on foundation and concealer whenever I go out, and I don't need heavy liner and shadow to be able to leave my house.

I really appreciate everyone that has been there for me. I'm just feeling so insecure these days. After coming to LFA a year ago, I've been breaking out, and gained a few pounds. But I'm sorta back on track now.. and hopefully, my face will keep healing.

I just wanted to say thanks. And I'm not the type to say "omg i know i look ugly in this picture" because I know I don't. There's no need to comment. I put this picture up for myself. To show myself that I CAN do this. That I DON'T need to pack on the cosmetics. I want to prove to myself that this is the way I am, and it's been fine all along.

I wish I knew what I know now.

I thought I had found my best friend. We chilled, we clubbed, we laughed, and most of all, I trusted her. Now what's this? Thank you for telling her my secret. Out of all people... but what can I say, priorities are uncontrollable. What can I do, if your feelings for her overpower the feelings of our friendship? But I gotta tell you.. I really trusted you. I'm not even mad, I'm just sad. Sad that this even happened in the first place. Sad that you would do that to me. Sad that she comes before me.

Is there no good left? It's like I can't trust anybody but myself.

This sucks.

I pray for her even more than me.

Although I have personally never experienced true male affection, this song, undoubtedly, does not cease to touch me.

& the fact that he's super cute does not help with the situation haha. too bad he's gay!!

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so glad it's only a 3 day week! Wednesday, I have yet another doctor's appointment. I was just there on Friday, waiting for like 4 hours.. I swear, at this rate, I should just live there! haha. Thursday/Friday, visit UBC with Anna, then shop for Montana's present with Nicole. Then Sunday, Nicole invited me to be in a commercial... what. I hope I'm not seen! hahaha.

I still gotta do my video for the scholarship : \

ughhlskjflskjs!

You're gonna regret this, Angel.

i need to stop wasting so much time. i procrastinate way too much than I should, when I should be waking up at 5am everyday doing homework. Ugh, screw you youtube. Screw you msn. Screw you university. If it were up to me, I wouldn't even go to university right away. Not that I would take a whole year off, but I'd like a semester to myself.. to travel, and kinda figure out who I am. But clearly, that is not achievable, given the fact that I am pressured everyday to get into university. Ughh, what about me?!

Everyone's talking about prom dates.... What's wrong with going alone?! I honestly don't have a problem with it. I'd rather go alone and have fun with my bbgs, then frolic about to find someone last minute just for the sake of bringing a date. It's high school prom people, it's not really that big of a deal!! Okay, it is, in terms that I wanna look good, but date?! really?! I mean, if I had a boy/girlfriend, then yeah I would totally bring that person. But I don't! So what's the point of bringing anyone else???? I don't get what the rave is..

Sooo glad this week only consists of 3 school days :D:D woo!! I need me some ME TIME. For real. I gotta get so much accomplished, in SO LITTLE TIME.

ubc, I will see you. TRUST ME, I WILL.

fucked myself over.. again

-french assignments

- scholarships

- applications

....... theres not enough time in this world

and the stock market game is stressing me out like fuck. Apple, I swear.. if you drop one more cent, I'ma come find you

evening be guile

ubcubcubcubcubcubcubcubc. you'll be the death of me.

what is this fuckery

the point of dating someone, is because you like them

so you don't know me, so it's kinda impossible to like me

i ask you why, and you say im pretty

what the actual fuck

dont fucking put yourself up on a pedestal, it turns me the fuck off.

amazing grace

today.

i met someone.

.. worthy of talking to.

thanks.