my lovely halloween partner, Nicole :)get it? hahahahhahahah.
okay. so i put this up on facebook the other day. And I was really hesitant, 'cause I am wearing absolutely no makeup. I've been really insecure about my skin lately, and for me to do something like that, is ME PUTTING MYSELF OUT THERE. And it's so weird, because after putting this up, I got compliments. wtf? My friend messaged me and said "dude, i saw your picture. you look prettier without makeup. tbh" And for like a minute, I was kinda like.. heh. After, I was just really appreciative that she said that.
I really need to find myself. Around 3 years ago, I never wore makeup. Okay, maybe like mascara, and that was it. But now, I feel as though I have to keep up an image, or I'm not pretty enough.. Honestly, I find it sad. It takes me forever to get ready (or used to). My mom keeps telling me I'm fine without makeup, but I would never believe her because.. well, she's my mom. I'm always gonna be "beautiful" in her eyes. But it really hit me when people started "liking" my pictures and commenting nice things, that I really do not need to put on layers on foundation and concealer whenever I go out, and I don't need heavy liner and shadow to be able to leave my house.
I really appreciate everyone that has been there for me. I'm just feeling so insecure these days. After coming to LFA a year ago, I've been breaking out, and gained a few pounds. But I'm sorta back on track now.. and hopefully, my face will keep healing.
I just wanted to say thanks. And I'm not the type to say "omg i know i look ugly in this picture" because I know I don't. There's no need to comment. I put this picture up for myself. To show myself that I CAN do this. That I DON'T need to pack on the cosmetics. I want to prove to myself that this is the way I am, and it's been fine all along.
