hey blog, long time no see !

so I'm finally ungrounded haha. Going to Society with some girls tonight, can't wait to dress up ! I feel&sound like a total loser. Excited for dinner ?! LOL Yeah, haven't gone out for a while, but I'm glad I'm not grounded anymore that's for sure hahahaha. I hope I passed my exam !!!

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Your attempt to fit in isn't working.

Everyone knows what happened to you last year.

Why are you wasting your time and trying so hard,

when we all know you ain't going nowhere.

Once a loser, always a loser.

This is for you.

ugh, what the fuck is her problem.

get your shit together, please.

OMG FINALLY !

Ughhhhh, finally !!!! I've been waiting for this for idk, 10 million years !? i loooove this video. rihanna looks so fine haha. love her hair love the makeup LOVE HER ! however, i soo0o did not expect megan fox to be in this. meh, she's alright. but her boyfriend. . what the fuck !? he looks like a rat. she can do better. . this video can do better. omg. hes so ugly T______T

This guy, is by far theeee cutest guy on youtube haha. ( next to charlieiscoollike or whatever. hi joanne ) he's soooo damn cute omg. loooooooooooove him :D:D:D

lalalale***** : )

Who was there when all my hopes fell. .

was

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ugh, i'm so done. i hate introducing my "friends" to other people because i never get the same treatment in return. okay, sometimes. if you're reading this and you're of them them rare peeps, im solly. but there are just THOSE "friends" i have that just never return the favour. why do you not feel the necessity for reciprocity hmm ? I bring you to all these damn parties, i ask you to chill and shit. and i NEVER get that in return. i see you going out and shit, and im like, hmmmm. . okay ? & i know it's not because you don't like me because you always chill with me. but yknow, just thanks. i'm thankful for you because now i know who NOT to bring the next time i go out.

i hate how there is always competition between us. why do you always have to bring me down ? i know i may not be skinny. and i know for damn sure i dont got a nice complexion. but seriously, . . i don't even feel bad about it, until yoooou show up. ugh. i just hate how you make me feel. i get the point that you're better than me in a lot of ways, but thanks for rubbing it in. thanks. really, thanks.

Pride Parade !

LOL. that shit ain't cute dude. Unattractiveness doesn't get my attention. If you REALLY think I'm into this whole IMISSYOU bullshit, please. You're stupid and you're just lying to yourself. Be realistic. Stop wasting my time. Stop wasting yours since you claim you're "always really busy". Kay ? Do me a favour and just shut up. Because I really don't give a shit. Believe me hahahahah. I'm not who you think I am. I'm not innocent nor am I "cute". Fuck, I seriously hate that word. Everytime I hear "cute" I think of like bunnies and shit. Yeah, bunnies are cute but I'm not a bunny. So yeah, don't call me cute, 'cause I'm not. Yeah, if you're reading this, it's probably for you : ). I don't like you, and you need a reality check. To be honest, I think you're a gigolo. I know you're around a whole load of people so don't even give me the OH YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE crap. Been there, done that. Yeah, it's true. I'll never know if you're lying to me or not. But, I know you are. I hate you for all the stupid lies, and I hate you for fucking up my sleep schedule. Yeah, I do feel stupid. SO stupid, you have no idea. I just need you OUT of my life. Shut up, I don't give a shit about you. & You must be delusional to think I ever did.

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WHY DOES SPAIN WIN EVERYTHING !? FIRST SOCCER, NOW FIREWORKS !? WTF ?!!?!? They need to sit the fuck down and abolish bullfighting before anything else, please.

if only he weren't gay. .
LOL wtf ?!
yumm
the guy that has his back to us, seriously looked like taylor lautner. SO HOT. but again, not like he would ever look at us = = WHYYYY !
LOL i look so ugly in this but whatever. ISN'T THIS JUST SO F'KING AWESOME !? hahaha :D
yumm
hot gay men, omgg
beautiful vancity :D
lalalalove
the 2nd cowboy in the bottom row was like GOING ALL OUT. he was just hella into it. hahah
so pretty : )
GAY !
bubblez
omg. so ugly. but yeah, this stupid $80 wig was so bad. It took me like HALF AN HOUR just to put it on, and i ruined a bit of it by tryna straighten it. . but it was plastic !! Ugh. THE WIG WAS A FAIL.

So yesterday, I seriously had the worst day. Bad hair, bad face, ugh. Everything was just so bad. It was cold in the morning then all of a sudden it was fucking hot. So I'm like, sweating and being all gross and shit. Yeah, not good. However, I did have fun. The gay parade was definitely interesting : ) & I will probably go again next year hahahha

I. .

Laying here in my slumber. .

I look back.

Back to when we first started talking.

I miss that feeling, that rush

knowing that you'd be equally eager

I miss you.

With you, everything is so unpredictable.

And if you don't think it's hard,

you're just wrong.

I don't know when we'll talk again,

I don't know when I'll see your smile again,

but all I can say. .

is right now. .

at this moment. .

You're all I can think about.

You're all I ever think about.

You. .

I feel foolish,

with all these uncontrollable feelings.

Is this what you wanted ?

Is this what you wanted to do to me ?

I beg of you to stop,

stop lying,

stop fooling,

because when you say it,

I'll believe you.

I used to think of this as hope,

but right now, it's not hope. .

It's actually a sorrow.

Everyday, I wake up

and it's all the same again. .

Nothing changes.

Well. .

I need a change.

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EDIT August 3rd, 2010 12:36 am.

LOOOOOL ! WHO AM I KIDDINGGGGGGGGGG

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars ! // China Fireworks !

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile. . .
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omg. no wonder China fricken wins every year ! They were soo0o good !!!!

Basically, I was supposed to go with Edmond. But he didn't go. So he told me to call Joseph, but Joseph initially said he was gonna go really late so he told me to call Clara. Then Clara just left, so Joseph finally saved us some seats. hahahahaha. confusing eh ? I bought a pink wig today for gay day tmrrr hehehehe :D I'm so excited !

I missed you, again. .

heartheartheart ! Nicole & I : )



soooo pretty !
GAY ! :D

Ugh, I look so ugly in this. But that's Nicole Joseph and I : )

Just a little clip from todays' fireworks : )